About Me?

Do you even care?
Well, here's my about me. The truth, everything.

My name is Ashley Ku'uelaloha Kupau. People have their nicknames. I am 15, but I'm going to turn 16 on June 3rd. I go to St. Francis High School. I am currently single, but I am head over heals in like with this guy.
I have a habit of overanalyzing things. I wish I didn't, but I do it unconscicously. I can get jealous very easily. I'm not as strong willed as I seem. I may seem like I have the perfect life on the outside, but it doesn't really come out that well. I can put smiles on other people's faces, but my own. I always feel that I'm not good enough for anybody. I have loads of baggage. My baggage consists of all my struggles, my tears, my emotions, my writings, everything. I can be an emotional wreck. If you mean a lot to me, I will love you with all my heart.

I'm scared of life though. I'm scared to be love, no matter how much I want it. I'm scared to be hurt again. I'm scared of commitment. I'm scared to actually be accepted.

That's just a little bit of me.
I guess I'm just too complicated.

Smile,

I know the pity face so well. I know all of the sorrys, I know everything.
I feel like I'm contridicting myself, because apart of me is telling me to 'just smile' but thinking about it, it's not that easy as it sounds. People may tell you that everything is going to be okay. Sometimes it doesn't come out that way. You can hope that everything will be okay, but we don't know for sure, do we?

Wish

Don't you just wish that sometimes you could just change things just by simply saying the words? I got through watching 'Bedtime Stories' with Adam Sandler. It got me thinking. I wish that whenever trouble came along or something I want to happen, I could simply say the right words, and there...it happens.
Life isn't always that way. Life has its roads with bumps, but other roads have smooth sailing. Life is complicated.

No Prince Charming For Me

Once I've met you, I've stopped wishing upon a star or thinking about story tales, because for once my reality is better my own dreams or the stories. I don't need you to be Aladdin and I'll be Jasmine. I don't need you to be Eric and I'll be Ariel. I just need you to be you and for me to me. Because we became hella close for us to be ourselves.

I read about little girls dreaming about their Prince Charming, and when they get married they find one. I dream that I would find one my own. That one day, I'll marry my own Prince Charming. But, because of you, I find that you are my Prince Charming.

With the sound of voice saying my name, my head starts to spin. Just the simple touch of your hand brushing against my shoulder, makes my whole body start to become liquid. I'm so much in LIKE with you, that I can't see straight.

I believe that people don't know love. I believe that special feeling that people get when they see each other is truly special. But, I don't know love. I think that only God understands love. Why do I say I love you? I, honestly, have no idea. I just say it as words for my feeling towards them. Maybe thats it. Maybe say 'i love you' as exception for the feelings because thats the only way you can say it to them, by saying 'i love you.'

Well, I want to be able to say 'i love you' to you. I want to be able to tell you everything that I feel for you. I want to be able to call you my own. I want you and only you to be my Prince Charming.