Waiting in Vain,

"Its hard to give up on something knowing that it might never happen. Its even harder giving up on something when its everything you want."

Capri: "You know if you were smaller, he would totally date you. Just by the way, you guys talked. It was like you guys were going out, except in a friends way. And you know what I think? I think he liked you the whole time, but he just didn't know what to do with himself. He's so caught up with looks and what his friends might think."

And you know what? I think she's fucking right. If I was a size two, we would totally go out. Because to you, height doesn't matter. Because you were in love with Kalei and she's taller than you. So, obiviously its size. But, the whole liking me thing - I don't think so. I mean, who would like me? Nobody.

Straight up - the reason why I go to Damien games is because of you. I want to go and support you. I want to support my bestfriend on the field. I want you to be able to look up on the bleachers and see a big sign thats says 'chansome' and smile and know that somebody is up there just for you. I was hoping maybe that somebody would be me. I hope this isn't asking for a lot. But, did I ever get a 'Thank you Ash for coming to my game. Thank you for supporting me"? As fat as I know, no.

Thats why I constantly feel like I'm not good.