When will it be me?

I get regected on numerous occasions. When I got rejected from winterball, it got me thinking. It's never about me. It always about other girls and how they affect these boys, my so called "friends." All these girls have these guys that will do anything for them. And what am I? The one that helps the guy and the girl go together. But, who will help me go together with a guy?
I know I joke about it all the time, but deep down, it sucks.
I walk around and see couples holding hand in hand, only hoping and praying that I could be one of those one day.
I want a guy to resuce me from myself. I want a guy to wipe my tears away and assure me that he'll never hurt me. I want a guy that is willing to break down my barriers. I want a guy to support me, just as much as I will support them. I want a guy that thinks about me constantly. I want a guy that will love me for me, flaws & all. I want a guy that understands my past and knows why I'm so scared to fall in love. I want a guy that will listen to everything I have to say, stupid or not. I want a guy that will watch the sunset with me. I want him to smile at me and take away all of my problems. I want him to love me like no other boy has ever had. I want him to everything that I need. I don't need a superman. I just want this guy to WANT me as myself.

I think I have been waiting patiently.

"Only love lets us see normal things in extraordinary ways."
I want to see those normal things in extraordinary ways.