Reminisce.

I swear, I'm so bipolar. I took a stroll down memory lane and went through all the things that I wrote before. And I came upon the message between Kawena & I. It kept on saying how you appreciate me being there for you, and you wish that you could be there for me too. And how you will always be my best friend/brother. 'He wants you to believe him that you will never be replaced and you are a really good friend. he really does care for you.' Wow, I won't lie. That STILL brings me to tears. I remember that phone call. The one where both of us where crying our eyes out. I read to you one of the passages I wrote, and right there and then you were balling. I won't forget the words you would tell me. I didn't want to talk, my heart couldn't handle it. But, you wouldn't let me leave. You would tell me, 'no, we're going to get through this. We have too, we always do.' The reassured me that you wanted to be there for me.

I don't know what else to do. I think I have to trust you that you will always be there for me. To trust you that even though you don't say it anymore, or act like it, you're still my best friend.