Church 061409

"Your name matters to Him. You're somebody to God. He loves you. He not only loves you, he likes you. He loves to be with you. When people tell you that you don't matter. Or when you tell yourself that you don't matter, rethink that. God thinks you matter. He chose you to be is child. Don't wish that you were someone different to please other people. The only person you need to please is God. He loves you just the way you are."Today as I walk into church I thought to myself, "I don't really want to be here." In the high school events, we had a special guest. At first she was singing some lame songs. Then she started to speak. She told us about how whenever she was younger, she felt that she didn't matter because of how she looked. All of the kids thought that she was weird. She came home crying, only wishing that she was like them. She told us that she wished that she could be different for somebody to like her. That's when I started to get quiet, and really listen. She mentioned that she needed to prove something to people, just for them to like her.As she was speaking, I thought of myself. I thought about how I feel like I have to prove something to people, to show people what I'm made of. I thought how I wish day and night that I could be something to him. More than just a friend. I thought about how I wish I could just change myself for him. For him to even notice me differently, notice me like a diamond in the rough. I thought about how I feel like I'm never good enough for my friends. I thought how there's always another girl, about how it's never me.Because of today, within an hour. I feel like a different person. I feel like I shouldn't change. If I were to change it would be for the better of myself and God. Not for somebody to take a double look at me. I feel like I'm a better person. I'll always have God in mind, He'll be with me every step I take. For that, I'm forever grateful.